The other day was the anniversary of my uncle/godfather's passing. And every year since Carlos left us,( keep in mind it has only been three years ) he visits me. No, I am not losing my mind and no it does not scare me.
I do believe in spirits. This year I was driving my girls to group on Tuesday afternoon with the windows down, wind blowing the the car and me singing at the top of my lungs as if I were Mariah Carey when BAM Carlos popped into my head. Mid song there he was, maybe he liked my singing or maybe it was so bad he came by to shut me up 🤣 I racked my brain for the date and it hit me the anniversary was coming up.
The actual day of the anniversary I found my tv remotes on the floor. Now I am like clock work, when I go to bed I put my remotes in the same place on my desk..every single night. Well the morning of those remotes were on the floor!
I do miss him a lot. We used to go visit him pretty much every Friday night when I lived with my parents. He had such a good heart, I take comfort knowing he comes to visit. Wonder what else he has in store for me ❤️
Showing posts with label #suicideawareness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #suicideawareness. Show all posts
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Tuesday, September 23, 2014
Out of Darkness Walk North Shore
This past Saturday was the Out of Darkness suicide awareness walk and it was a great success ! There were over 1200 walkers there and I believe I heard over $10,000 was raised, but do not quote me on that since the stats were not up online and I could not really hear well from where I was standing..however I do know it was a huge chunk of change !
Team Lourenco ( my team ) had 19 walkers, a dog which whom was my uncle's dog ( the uncle in who's memory we were walking in) and my toddler. My daughter walked for a bit but was kind of a hazard because she would randomly stop and cause a traffic jam so up on grandpa's shoulders she went then into the carriage. It was a nice walk with perfect weather. Lucky the dog was a surprise and the perfect touch, Lucky was my uncle Carlos' little buddy those two were inseparable. He now lives with my other uncle and is doing very well, I am sure he misses me uncle like we all do.
The sponsors of this walk thought of everything and were so considerate, they had tissues on hand for anyone that would need them, snacks, water, music, and a Wall of Remembrance for anyone to write on. I am glad I did this, if I can prevent just one family from feeling the pain and anguish my family has been going through then my job is done.
Take a look at Team Lourenco, the wall of Remembrance and maybe one day there will be a world without suicide till then hug your loved ones and tell them you love them.
Team Lourenco ( my team ) had 19 walkers, a dog which whom was my uncle's dog ( the uncle in who's memory we were walking in) and my toddler. My daughter walked for a bit but was kind of a hazard because she would randomly stop and cause a traffic jam so up on grandpa's shoulders she went then into the carriage. It was a nice walk with perfect weather. Lucky the dog was a surprise and the perfect touch, Lucky was my uncle Carlos' little buddy those two were inseparable. He now lives with my other uncle and is doing very well, I am sure he misses me uncle like we all do.
The sponsors of this walk thought of everything and were so considerate, they had tissues on hand for anyone that would need them, snacks, water, music, and a Wall of Remembrance for anyone to write on. I am glad I did this, if I can prevent just one family from feeling the pain and anguish my family has been going through then my job is done.
Take a look at Team Lourenco, the wall of Remembrance and maybe one day there will be a world without suicide till then hug your loved ones and tell them you love them.
Sunday, August 31, 2014
Suicide Awareness
This is a very personal subject matter for me and it hurts to even write about it right now but I must in order to bring awareness and raise money. In June of this year I lost my Uncle to suicide, it shocked me to the core never ever in a million years did I think he would do something like that. Not only was he my uncle he was my godfather, we even share a birthday. My uncle Carlos was crazy, you never knew what he was going to say but did he have a heart of gold.
I wish he would have told someone how he was feeling, maybe he was too ashamed. I know old school people think being depressed or having suicidal thoughts make you " crazy " not in the way I not used the word in the paragraph above but as in straight jacket crazy. Older people think it's wrong to need antidepressants or a therapist to talk too. Some people are ashamed of needing either pills or someone to talk too. At one point I was ashamed because I was told I was going to see the crazy doctor when I was going to see my therapist...that's not right. If it helps clear your mind then go for it. That is why we need this awareness. We need to make people aware that it's okay to need someone to talk too or it's okay to need an antidepressant or anxiety medication.
On September 20th there will be a walk on the North Shore to help raise this much needed awareness. I am walking in my uncle's honor "The Lourenco Team " we will be wearing blue ! If you want to join in with us that would be awesome or if you would like to donate that would be great too. I would hate to see other families lose members to suicide, if there is anything we can do to prevent it lets do it. It's harder than you can imagine. I miss Carlos a lot, we were not extremely close but we were close enough, I think about him daily and know he watches over us now. Please follow this link if you are interested in walking or donating. Also here is a picture of Carlos and my daughter, this was Christmas of 2012.
http://afsp.donordrive.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=donorDrive.participant&participantID=600823
I wish he would have told someone how he was feeling, maybe he was too ashamed. I know old school people think being depressed or having suicidal thoughts make you " crazy " not in the way I not used the word in the paragraph above but as in straight jacket crazy. Older people think it's wrong to need antidepressants or a therapist to talk too. Some people are ashamed of needing either pills or someone to talk too. At one point I was ashamed because I was told I was going to see the crazy doctor when I was going to see my therapist...that's not right. If it helps clear your mind then go for it. That is why we need this awareness. We need to make people aware that it's okay to need someone to talk too or it's okay to need an antidepressant or anxiety medication.
On September 20th there will be a walk on the North Shore to help raise this much needed awareness. I am walking in my uncle's honor "The Lourenco Team " we will be wearing blue ! If you want to join in with us that would be awesome or if you would like to donate that would be great too. I would hate to see other families lose members to suicide, if there is anything we can do to prevent it lets do it. It's harder than you can imagine. I miss Carlos a lot, we were not extremely close but we were close enough, I think about him daily and know he watches over us now. Please follow this link if you are interested in walking or donating. Also here is a picture of Carlos and my daughter, this was Christmas of 2012.
http://afsp.donordrive.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=donorDrive.participant&participantID=600823
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