Dating after divorce has not been a pleasant experience; I used Bumble, joined a single parents group on Facebook and cringing as I type this joined Tinder. I came across a lot of, let's say colorful men. Many with wives or girlfriends...seriously what are they doing on there ?! I should clarify these attached guys were on the apps not in the Facebook group, the group screened it's members well and was a great support system. I went out on dates with men who had zero respect for my time which was limited due to me being a single mother. Men who only wanted sex...insert eye roll. Came across excons, alcoholics, drug addicts just flat out red flags. Dating as a single parent and after divorce flat out sucks ! Just as I was about to give up I did meet someone. A normal respectful, sweet and caring man. So it's not impossible to find someone after divorce like I thought. I am very happy with the relationship I am now in, don’t give up !
I found a meme on Facebook that had read “ no matter how much you sleep you will always feel tired if your soul is what’s tired “. That hit a nerve with me; my soul is extremely tired.
About 8 months ago my spirit and heart was broken and hasn’t fully been repaired. That damaged my soul as well. I have not been myself completely since. I am constantly tired, I don’t “ feel “ my smile, There is still a small ache in my heart daily.
It’s time to repair my soul. I need to sit back and reflect the good there is in my life, smudge out the negative, do for myself. I honestly cannot keep going on with a tired soul.
Part of my problem is I feel too much, if you are hurting well I hurt too. If you cry, I cry. I take in too many feelings. I have to learn to control that part of me and not let it overwhelm me. I love too hard, I need to control that as well. I fall too fast, that shit needs to be contained !
I have to stop giving so much of myself to people who take me for granted. I spread myself thin as it is with my kids. Life goes by quickly and one never knows when it’s our last day here so it needs to be enjoyed not miserable and so ....tired.
