I am not going to bash my Ex as much as I would love too only because I am upset at the moment. But I am going to say that it drives in insane when he cannot make it the ONE day a week to see his kids. I wonder what will happen when his new kid comes along, will my kids get the boot ? This is the guy who fought me for more time with them, this is why it drives me bat shit crazy when he does not show up. I have learned to not tell my children when he is coming because he sadly has a bad track record.
I am tired of being angry and bitter. I had decided a few weeks ago that I will be looking at the positive in things and not be so negative. Today I had a hard time with that at first; I had planned on going grocery shopping alone but you know what I let my 5 year old bring her own shopping cart and she was very well behaved in the store. That in itself was a very positive thing normally she has a ton of meltdowns and I get "the look " from judgy people in every other aisle since they have no idea what is going on in her little mind, they just see what they want.
I was going to voice my frustrations to my ex however my words would just roll off his back. This is me getting my frustrations out and letting it go. I will not let it bother me anymore going forward, I know I cannot count on him to be there when he is supposed to be there and I know I cannot tell my kids in advance about things he is supposed to do with them or that he is coming until he is at the door. I know better. My girls are smart and will know that I was always there for them all the time every single day for the rest of their life.
I feel better now that I have gotten this off of my chest. Let's see what next weekend brings. Enjoy the full moon everyone and try to be positive :-)
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