Got to get back on track

I must say I have gained a bunch if weight since over the past couple months, 14 pounds to be exact. After I had the baby I lost all the baby weight but it is all back again.

It is really depressing me. I had been doing great weight wise before I got pregnant; eating pretty clean, portion control and walking at least 3-5 miles. Then I got pregnant and what a tough pregnancy, I was so sick in the beginning then the preeclampsia kicked in. It was a tough last pregnancy I tell you. 

Now that my rainbow baby is here I am just so tired. I know she is 9 months old and all but she is still waking up several times through the night to eat. And I have my 3 yr old as well. She is full of energy, wish she could bottle some of it up and give it to me !

After having the baby I got postpartum depression and anxiety. I am not sure if the medication I am taking is also playing a part in my weight gain. But I am sure it has more to do with the fact that I am no longer walking, using portion control, eating clean etc.

I seriously need to start eating the right way again. Maybe it will stop the headaches as well and make me feel better about myself again. I want more energy and I am sure exercise will help with that but building up the gumption to do it while dragging from lack of sleep is tough. The warmer weather is coming so it will get easier I am sure to get out there and walk on the trail behind my house.  I want to be able to look in the mirror and not be disgusted with what I see. I want to be able to fit into my clothing properly and I want new cute clothing. These are my goals and I thought I would share with you !