She's having a baby

And by she I mean me ! It was a surprise to all including myself. I will be 23 weeks tomorrow and since I am at the "advanced maternal age" in my life I am considered high risk well that and high blood pressure. I see a specialist every 4 weeks who comes in from Tufts to give me an ultrasound.

This is the reason for me not writing as often as I was; my first trimester I was miserable with morning sickness and fatigue then I hit my second trimester and felt good for a week or two then BAM fatigue hit again this time the cause was Anemia. I know that when you are pregnant you are more likely to become anemic but I never had the issue with my other two. Iron pills it is then about two weeks ago I get a call from my Doctor informing me that I am developing preeclampsia already. Call in the the headaches and spots floating in my eyes. We are playing around with different blood pressure medicines, my Doctor whom I trust is confident he can keep the baby cooking while keeping me safe. We did talk about IV therapy but that means hospitalization, that would be a last resort for me. I do not like being in the hospital knowing my daughter would be wondering where I am, that would break my heart. I am not one to jump to the hospital for everything unless necessary. If it is necessary I do have a plan in place for care. I like being prepared for as many scenarios as possible !

I tell you it's tough being pregnant with a rambunctious 2.5 year old while keeping up with the house. I have had some help from a good friend and family but it's still tough. As much as I would like to sleep the day away I cannot and do what I have to do to be a good mom. This has been the most difficult so far; with my oldest I had the morning sickness ( in another country might I add while on vacation ! ) but other than that it was smooth sailing till the end where I was stuck on bed rest. With my middle one no sickness at all ! I just had to deal with the fact she had a two vessel cord, she was missing an artery in the umbilical cord. thank goodness she is alright and was born a decent size.

It feels good finally coming out about this pregnancy. Now I can talk to others about it, maybe another mom or mom to be is dealing with preeclampsia and want to connect. I was hesitant about writing about it at all because ....my husband and I are still separated. There I said it and I was a bit embarrassed but it happened and I am welcoming this little girl with welcome arms. Did I mention it's a girl ?!  God or some higher being wanted her here with me so that is where she will be. 

Its's too bad that I did not save everything from when my youngest was an infant, I held onto just a few things. Speaking of said child, she is not so open to welcoming a new baby into the house, as she puts it she " is the baby" ! She is getting there though. And on that note stay tuned for more on this adventure.