I know I have been AWOL for months, and I am dreading this post because that means I admit that I have been in a " black hole ".
It is true though. I have not been myself, I lost myself really. I did have things I wanted to write about and had it all written out in my head but would not get onto the computer to type it out. I used to like cooking and trying new recipes and now I just slap together the quickest thing, I do not feel like cooking. It's the dreaded Black Hole.
My body hurts too, my blood pressure medicine makes my muscles cramp up in my arms and legs so I am constantly hurting, some days are worse than others. It is hard to explain to people, and I think because others do understand they just down play it to me being lazy. I am taking magnesium in hopes of helping it. Headaches are coming back again and I think it is because of stress and the stress feels worse because of the Black Hole.
But I am working on getting out of the Black Hole, I am seeing a therapist and will be reclaiming myself. Yes, you have heard it before but you can look forward to more posts from myself. Please bear with me during this process.
Xoxo.
